no “good vibes” here

being a lightbearer isn’t about “good vibes only”.

being a lightbearer invites you to sit with your grief on purpose.

the parts of us who grieve are the softer parts. the tender parts. the parts who loved. the parts of us who remember why and from whence we came.

emotions are “energy in motion”. 

unless we allow ourselves to get in the way/interrupt that process. unless our nervous system learned to block our experience (often at a time we didn’t have the safety and support we needed to ride the waves).

you don’t get to pick and choose which emotions you feel. if you block (deny, numb, stuff) some, we you them all.

emotions that don’t get to move through the body get stuck, build up over time like lava in an active volcano, and then either come out sideways or implode within the body itself; causing damage in either case.

sitting with your grief on purpose helps you to remember that you are human. that you are more than the sum of your accomplishments.

sitting with your grief builds your capacity to sit with and truly feel the full range of your human experience.

sitting with your grief reconnects you with other humans; with the ties that bind us all together.

denying your grief creates an empty shell within the complex and deeply nuanced human experience. denying your grief can make you brittle. denying your grief can make you ill. denying your grief fractures your soul.

if you haven’t had a lot of practice sitting with and feeling your emotional experience(s), you may need support in order to engage without become distraught, overwhelmed and shutting down all over again. 

this capacity can be built over time with gentle, intentional practice. there is no need to rush the unfolding. your body will tell you where it feels ready (and safe) to go if you invite it to do so.

resourcing your nervous system with intention through different somatic based practices can help. titration and pendulation can help. sitting with an empathetic witness, a trauma informed and/or trauma trained practitioner can help. 

tending to your spark means tending to your grief. 

Love, Booth